life most complex problems

AT the age of 15, I became a rape victim, and the perpitrater instilled in me fear, over years caused panic attacks,

he took my life, my childhood memories, my dreams, for my futures,  I got married by the time I was 17. had 4 children by the time I was 25 years old,. my late husband drowned in 1970 and left me to raise them  with the help of my parents.  It wasn,t till my late husband died   that I began to put 2&2 together of life most complex problems, when my children go to teen age years. thats when i knew I had to deal with my past  incounters. and mistakes against others,. when one has a relationship with the opposite partner, they take the womens life and the womens life goes on the man.. I meet up with the perpitrater in 1971(which he denyed it happened)  again, and saw my life go on him, i found away to bring it back and put it on my children(the good part of my life, i keeped the rape part on me, untill i did something about it, (councelling)   I went to my parents to talk to them about it, but nothing got said as I had brothers and sister whom controled my parents for what they wanted, (the shame part of this is, they are adults now and they do the same thing in the system they don,t let people talk for themselves, and second guess what they think was said or done,, ( we all accountable  for our own actions and words towards other,) these words and actions are what causes life most complex problems, when carried out when ones an adult,)

 As i would get these panic attacks, that no one understood i, lost jobs and even blame for swearing at customers,, not one of the departments in the system took any notice of my complaint or injustices that was done to me and my children ,

 So  I never gave up , they just had to be a reason why others put themselves first. over the law.

 since the day we are born we ask god why this why that, if we don,t get the right answer, as we are growing up, then it become blocks in our lives, .and these block are what we have to understand the wisdom of those words, after we corret our mistakes in our children, I always told my children the truth about all aspects of my life, and i found they would tell me the truth. of thier indeavers,

With a lot of trial and error,  over years untill 1997 when the big commet went over earth, i saw the lot by vision, ,  the whole damn shooting box. as far as we improved, i went back in time, back to present, and ahead to the future, of how it can be,, ones thought one puts out there or on others, is very important,  one thoughts have to be pure, to beable to put the full sentence together. on wisdom of words.,

god gave me the gift of life, as i,d learnt the right way, ever sent me the goose with the golden egg, when one experienes what i did then they know they are on the right path, to being wise,

even experienced the connection on how virgin merry concieved.

ive lived below the bread line most of my life, through no fault of my own,, the gift gods given me to know this path of human survival and this planet, as ive got to continue to put it in writing for others to understand,,,  our family trees branch out to the planets,, mars, venus, mercury, up to jupitor.  the more we understand and improve one we will be able to open up the universe, again to these planets with gods help, we up to the weather patterns now, god will send us the message, but it depends on how our minds determine it what puts us on levels, of balancing the weather.

as gods my witness this is the only true path to follow.

 god give those the full gift of life wisdom of words path to those whom keep getting refused justice, on all levels he know ever thing one thinks says and does,  so  empty words don,t fool him

 plan, if one speaks out of turn, against another that doesn,t concern them they drop back a level, and one behind goes in front, untill they mend thir ways, or understand the wisdom why.

once some one understand their own mistakes against others, no one can control them to do it again,, next step is the wisdom of words of that mistakes